10 August 2025

I did some Uni work today, but not much. Not as much as I'd like to. I let myself get distracted. Frankly, the work was easier and smaller than I was expecting. I was also too timid to scan some relevant worksheets. I should've done it earlier and I didn't want to be asked questions about it.

I am dissapointed that you used your fear as an excuse to procrastinate on scanning it. Firstly, if you were asked about your scanning, a simple answer would likely have sufficed. Just say that it's for an assessment and perhaps when it's due. You've been asked such questions many times before. You were just making excuses. That being said, some work is better than no work and you've once again shown that your fears are exaggerated. Why did you not do as much as you'd like to?

I let my focus wander and I was both sleepy and exhausted. After brunch, I ended up drifting into other activities, which wasted an hour. Additionally, in the afternoon, I felt extreemly tired. It made it difficult for me to focus on anything - I even felt demotivated in relatively basic things like digging out the Emerald Caves on Amplicity. Even now, I feel worn out and emotional at the moment.

What sort of things did you do after brunch?

I can't exactly recall. I think that it was playing games on my phone and on my Switch.

You use your phone at mealtimes. Naturally, that puts your momentum into wasting time on your phone. Why do you keep using your phone at meals?

I think that habit is one reason. I've done so for so long that it's weird not to. It also just feels somehow wrong to not have it. I don't know how to explain it. Like there's something missing? Disempowering? I know that it's not good, but I can't help myself!

One thing that I can think of is to get rid of any unnessecary apps as they are outlets for distraction. Also, you have autism. That means that you have a need to stim. Keep some fidget toys around so that you can use those. It may also help to record any thoughts that you have regarding your phone.

I will uninstall my games from my phone. That should help with distraction more generally. Might you be able to help in other ways?

What do you mean? I am you, so I don't think so. As for sleep, you should probably go for a snooze right now. Maybe try having a nap in the early afternoon as well.